After The Movie
(after Marie Howe’s After The Movie)
Fuck Ross, Michael says as we walk out the exit
I can’t take any more of these films
We’re standing in Westdale under the burnt out marquis
the theatre is in sad repair, up for sale
Michael, I say, it wasn’t that bad and he says you’re just plain wrong,
that was a god awful piece of shit
You I say are far too critical, a piece of shit perhaps but not on the god awful level
We start walking away towards the Snooty Fox
across the street to grab a couple of pints
I haven’t been there since before Greg killed himself, remember looking in the window one stormy winter
night, Greg there holding court, I half expect him to be there tonight
Look Michael, that film is like anyone’s life, not great, not bad, just pretty mediocre
and really can anybody ask for more than that
Michael stops, looks at me and holds my elbow, Yes, he says, they can and
fucking should
Michael, who is totally fucked up, my friend who I’ve know for forty years., in and out of my life for all that time
Look, I say, we’re doomed to mediocrity and here’s why, we live in procrastination and never mind multi-tasking we mostly zero-task, but that’s okay, accept it, stop striving
I won’t he says, success and happiness are tied together, we can only get one by getting the other
By this time we’re seated in the bar., I order a Barking Squirrel and he does the same, we both take a sip, it’s good and cold
Michael says, Idleness is fatal only to the mediocre said Camus
I say, Stupidity lies in wanting to draw conclusions said Flaubert
We both sit there, the noise of the bar around us
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